A Long Hard Day

Today has been one of the most terrifying days in my life. Something that I have always been scared about. That I would get a phone call telling me that something had happened to one of my family members. Late yesterday I got an awful call from my brother. He then went on to tell me my dad had some chest pain while they were out building fence. At that time they didn't think that it was serious, but they wanted Dad to stay for monitoring at the Coalgate hospital. I called Dad at the hospital. He said he felt fine and was just trying to take a nap. Then he said he had indigestion from a Jalepeneo burger from sonic. He said he would be fine in a couple days. A few hours later I got a call from my Mom. She was in route to OK city to the Heart Hospital. They were taking my Dad there on the helicopter. My brother was a few minutes behind her. Later we found out that Dad had several heart attacks that day. One building fence, one while on the phone with me and some on the way to OK City on the helicopter. That was late last night.

All I have been doing today is calling and waiting. Dad had surgery at noon OK time. They ended up finding 3 blockages and putting in stents into 2 of them. The main doctor will come by in the morning and they will discuss the best thing to do for the remaining blockage. Dad says he doesn't feel that bad. Just very tired.

Ever since last night, I have felt like my heart has stopped beating or that I am holding my breath. I love my Daddy so much. Always have. We just have a special bond. I miss all of my family and times like these make it almost unbearable. Now that I Am married and have a child, I know my home is where my husband daughter are. But it is still very hard to to be so far away from all those people that I love.

Since I have became a mother, some thing are so much clearer to me. Like how your parents can love you so much. Even when you are a little shit. I love my daughter so much. She loves her mom and dad and grandparents so much as well. It scares the crap out of me to even think of anything bad happening to her. Right now she is sitting beside me in my chair watching cartoons and just being near me. She knows when I am upset and tries to make me feel better.

Today she said that Papa didn't feel good, and needed medicine to feel better. She said she wanted to go see Papa, house & Grandma's too! She sure loves them both. Mom said Sydney would be the best medicine of all. I have never seen a room light up, like it does when my Dad sees Sydney. The same for her.

I will write more tommorow. If you believe in God, please please say a prayer for my Dad, our family and Dad's doctors. I know that God was watching out for Dad. It could have been so much worse, as Dad could have been home alone when all of this happened. So God, Thanks for what you have done so far and please continue to heal my Daddy's heart. If you are my family or friend, please go to bed knowing that I love you and am so blessed to have each of you in my life.